+++::tHiS STING iNsiDe::+++

2005-03-17T10:56:00.000+08:00

pogy rawks! woohoo!! johor was great!! din shop much but enjoyd it!! have to really comment on the teens there.. they have really changed!! ok.. there still are the typical mat & minah malaysia and they're lovin it.. young kids not knowing their stuff but trying their best to imitate their Singaporean counterparts... So-called "skinheads" wearing overly tapered pasar malam jeans and of course, how can we ever forget the rude boys wif their "its gonna flood soon" smart pants!! haha, freak show sey... have nothing against them but their old-timers gotta really set a good example for the new breeds... haha.. ok.. enuff kutok-king... erm, food's great, had roti canai a.k.a prata at Singgah slalu.. Popular place for Singaporeans to get robbed... It has since renovated and shifted to a new place... But of course, the houseflies tagged along... hee... what a way to describe it!! hmm... ok, then made our way to Giant, the huge one... din have the urge to splurge yet, coz got nothing there... definitely enthralled by the exotics they sold there... huge emperor scorpions going cheaply for RM38!! i suddenly wondered how to smuggle it back here but.. oh well.. dun tink it would be a good investment... albino pythons, boa constrictors, young green iguanas... all my desired exotics were there!! but, dun tink now's a good time to have them, especially wif granny around... sheeeeeessssssshhhh... then, me bought some yummy cheap kaya balls and made my way into the hypermart... before that, we deliberately fascinated ourselves that we could own at least 3 semi-d's wif the price ofour present jumbo flat!! haha!! then, we fell in love wif one of them... "Maya villa" the exclusiv tropical balinese living... haiz... only if i, alone could afford that!! I would definitely turn it into a betta breeding haven!!! woohoo!! but of course, not possible... sheeeeshh!! then, we decided to at least own one, a slightly smaller one, "Ibah villa"... Ok lah, not so bad.. haha, at this moment, my mum is calculating her in that enterprising head of hers.... deciding to buy or not to buy... haha, dunno lah eh... kinda great to have property there!! furthermore, my grandad is excitedly rummaging thru his stuff for his passport!! poor thing!! excited sey!! haha... ok2, enuff bout houses.... then we went in the hyermart... gedebak-gedebuk, finish buying some groceries then we went to see the showhouse!!! breath-taking... guess what?? 3/4 the houses there have been snapped up by Singaporeans!!! haha!! even the showhouse!? ok, enuff bout da house... Sheessshh!!! then went to Plaza Angsana... my haven!! makan at sedap corner then solat... then , walked around, accompanied babat boy buy chewing gum then, went to my shops!!! hehe... N&Z and silver planet... was cautious not to get imitated stuff... have to say that da kids there can never splurge like da way we spluge there!! without the exchange rate, da price of da stuff there is equivalent to da price of the stuff here... so, my condolences to da peeps there... hmmm... bought two Billabong tees and ya, that's it coz i oreadi splurged some of my bucks on CDs... haiz... no sponsors!! moreover, today me going out in a while!! haha!! ok.. then, we bought a few more cds for ayah then went makan at Kenny Rogers... Yumm!! blah3, went home... reached my block at ard 10+.... end of story!!! hehe, ok... gotta go change, going out!! pogy rawks! woohoo!!

2005-03-15T15:41:00.000+08:00

prepaid is such a killer!!! arrgh!!! at last got my topup!!! heee.... feels like it has been a decade since i smsed!! hehe, have been posing wif my valueless hp for more than a month!! usng it specifically for the camera.. haiz, serve me right for exceeding the limit set by my mum!! hee.. but... damnit, now the buttons on the right hand side can't be used at all!! plus, the warranty juz ended 2 weeks ago!! arrgh!!! hell this sucks!! school has been geeewwdd!!!!!! got my progress report and was definitely enthralled by the results!!! but still, gotta catch up more for chemistry, many essential skills not mastered yet... bio is gewd too, but i think can improve further if i memorise the notes... erm, ya... dats all... getting better!! yay!! at last! something great i can work for!!hmmm... wat else... oh ya!! tmrw going johor!! plaza angsana rawks big time!! haha, gonna shop till my mum drop! hee.. no lah, me not that bad u know... ya, also, thursday, got outing!! "retainees club" meeting! haha... dunno go where do what but one thing's for sure me gonna thrash them in pool!! lucky plaza's a good place compared to paradiz where it's all dark and gloomy.. hmm... dunno lah! anything goes!!

2005-03-03T12:17:00.000+08:00

woohoo!!! so far so good.... life's geeeeewwwwwwwwddddddd now!!! hola peeps!! thanx for da taggies, advice and replies!!! ok... hmm... me feel kinda great coz me gotta hold of things somehow... erm, me in control of me revision, life( in a way or another) but me really irritated coz my granny keep on bugging me why i come home late blah blah blah... juz damned irritating!!! arrgh!!! haiz, 17 years old oso no freedom... haiz, can't enjoy life to the fullest knowing it may juz end anytime... haiz.... i shall not fret any further!!! have to start living life!!! haha!!! ok... but first my really update on da recent happenings... but, gotta wait coz me waiting for noormz to upload my pics for me!!! hehe, thanx a million noormie!!!

2005-02-20T14:13:00.000+08:00

sick, sick is all i feel.... f*** everthing that u think ah... i'm sick of ppl constantly interferring into my life... it is already bad and they are still persevering to make it worse, i dun need u ppl... thinking that wateva u all doin is right... trying to get back on track, i'm now held back... emotions stirred hatred brewing and i'm ready to make a kill.. get outta my life... u, patience is all u need but no, u need to blow things outta proportion, killing me wif extreme precision... i'm torn damn it, do u have to make it f***in worse??? juz wanna b alone, cutting myself up.... arrgh now i'm freaking wasting my time writing all this shit.. trying my best to explain myself to u in a way or another... i dun need this damn it... juz wanna b me can't u see how i am struggling here?? are u so blinded by ur "emotions" till u can't see what i'm going thru?? saying u know me well and i am not lyk this... unable to be me is losing me, so pls, leave me, dun bother me i dun need this

2005-02-06T20:32:00.000+08:00

no one knows of da trauma i am in and have been in... it hurts so much dat living another day is a torture... pressure pressure everywhere, "kau dah terok tu"... "why are we like this zy?"... "oh! u so 'smart'!!"... All this, how can i react to them when i myself can't get a grip of my present state.. ppl say it's ok but down inside they are saying, "what a loser!!"... I know myself, at least i used to... I was capable of chanelling negative remarks and actions into terrific positive motivation drives which propelled me to success in the past... but y not now? i juz can't see where all of this is heading to.. Although i am progressing academically in a way, i juz can't feel that i am in control and able to empower whatever obstacles along the way... my life is now in a setback, literally, my emotions are now juz numb and dead, my thinking is all negative and faint... i'm dying, tortured in silence, pain is a blessing for now i can't feel anything... dun say u know me, my problems and what i am going thru, u juz dun have the faintest idea of this life that is presented to me.. luxury, yes, everyone longs for it but, what is it for when u have too much and can't enjoy 'em all? i wanna start up something, in which i am good at and know that i can excel in it... but all of them is being ripped apart wif absolutely no support from wherever party although in a way, they say they do... i dun need all this, i can't afford to get hurt in any way, i juz wanna be me, can't u see? being me is more than anything i cud ask for.... dun try to undastand when u know u dun and u can't...

2005-01-22T17:40:00.000+08:00

How can I just let you walk away

Just let you leave without a trace

When I stand here taking

Every breath with you

You're the only one

Who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me

When all I can do is watch you leave

'Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain

And even shared the tears

You're the only one

Who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now

Oh there's just an empty space

And there's nothing left here to remind me

Just the memory of your face

Take a look at me now

'Cause there's just an empty space

And you coming back to me is against all odds

And that's what I've got to face
I wish I could just make you turn around

Turn around and see me cry

There's so much I need to say to you

So many reasons why

You're the only one

Who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now

'Cause there's just an empty space

And there's nothing left here to remind me

Just the memory of your face

Take a look at me now

'Cause there's just an empty space

But to wait for you is

All I can do

And that's what I've got to face

Take a good look at me now

'Cause l'll still be standing here

And you coming back to me is against all odds

That's the chance I've qot to take
Take a look at me now

Hate me all u want, delete me from your friendster, erase my name from your hp, forget me.... I have no say...

2005-01-20T18:30:00.000+08:00

hmm... life ok lah now... Great frens like rauzan, rusydi, kenneth, melvin and pinky are definitely hard to come by... now, my days are guaranteed wif laughter and joy... nothing beats them... I really enjoy every single minute of my life now... haiz, but i have to admit that i am not ready for any commitments anytime soon... i juz cudnt handle myself, hw can i handle someone else?? I'm terribly eka, me din mean to hurt u in any way or another... I still DO care and LOVE u... but then, i juz cant handle myself lately... The fear of repeating my mistakes has now rooted in me.. It juz can't go away... The stress similar to last year, is kicking in.... Terribly tough to handle... Juz dun hate me eka... U r da one dat i want to spent the rest of my life wif... I swear for the love of GOD dat u r da one for me... Never cud i let u go... I'm sorry, i am not ready for it right now, but trust me that i wanna get real wit u....

2005-01-14T20:29:00.000+08:00

life's great... i'm able to get a hold of lotta things... school's great too!! my temporary class is wonderful too!!! haiz, but no chio bu... sian... hehe, but i still got eka!! luRv my ayang.. soooooo muuuucccchhh!!!! mmmmmmmwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!!!! hee... nonetheless, i still have a few worries in me... firstly, the world is ending... soon... haiz, this makes me not have the drive to carry on... i would rather lock myself somewhere quiet, alone, away from any known civilisation and pray non-stop and repent... still, i gotta be forward looking and carry on mugging and slugging to survive the paperchase... i still feel down once in a while, realising that i'm a retainee... the first retainee in my family... created history... in a bad way that is.. haiz... it's my fault.. can't blame anyone for this.... wth, now i'm kinda back on track so must worry bout the bigger stuff like getting superannuated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! eeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz, gotta werk hard, pray and hope that GOD will help me along the way.... life's short, the end's coming... nuff' said.......

2004-12-24T14:41:00.000+08:00

Godfather III was simply a blast... Enjoyed every part of it!! Nonetheless, i would be more estatic if i watched the first 2 parts!! The storyline was great, the setting was amazing, the cast was wonderful!! There's nothing more to ask for!! I remember this line the Godfather said,"Never hate your enemies, it affects your judgement".... Hehe, the wise man has spoken.. Also, it teaches me to appreciate the simply facts of life... There was a part where the Godfather was lying helplessly in hospital after his blood sugar level suddenly dropped, his ex-wife came and told him that she had never seen him so helpless before... He replied that he was getting wiser(older)... He then added that when he dies, he will become smart... Who in the world has such great optimism??? A definitely fantastic show... Erm enuff bout dat, I have to apologise to eka for making her stay up while i watch the show! Hehe, sorry missy sleepy head!! hee....

2004-12-14T15:43:00.000+08:00

yay!!! at last!! can access!!! hee... so many things happened in such a short time!! k, firstly, i juz had my haircut juz now... it IS horrible!! eek!! hairdresser from hell!! arrgh!!! ok, enuf bout dat... hee... k, me went to Karimun island, to get a feel of what my dad has been going thru there... he goes there once in a while to educate the peeps there, give an opportunity to work... ok, at first i expected at least to cud be a shopping centre there but... there was none!!!! how cud the ppl there survive??? total boredom!!!! to whole place was kind of a village, the town was juz rows and rows of shophouses!!! eek!!! we stayed in a hotel where my dad would always be at... it was the best they had there... a 2 star hotel.. at first i didnt mind but... it was like a brothel!!! "women" line along the corridor waitnig for customers!!! juz imagine the horrified look on my mum's face!! i demanded to return home the very next day! arrgh!! juz can't stand it!! call me petty but i am absolutely outraged by the "so-called" norm there! Karimun is somewhat the next Batam!! Malaysian indian men and singaporean old chinese men made up the bulk of the "customers"... this has truly been an eye-opener for me... realising the need to be grateful for the luxurious life i have here... with god's grace, i hope and pray that none of the poverty or the desperateness to turn to such "professions" fall on my family, loved ones and friends... Amin..

2004-12-06T19:01:00.000+08:00

Life has been good for the past few days since i entered something here.... Still, the guilt and embarassment could be strongly felt in me and in those around me.. Also, the ever-continuous nagging from my granny about me "waking up from my dreamy-self" has somewhat subsided... Syukur Alhamdulillah... I have started back on revising and things seem easier to cope with... All of this is with the help and initiative of my mum in getting textbooks and reference books for me.. Thanx Ibu... Ok, a quick update... I have sold ALL of my fish, something I felt I juz had to sacrifice for the time being... I can't afford to fail for the second time, there won't be anymore chances... I juz hope that in the coming year, things would be much easier for me to handle and there won't be any major obstacles for me to overcome... Insyallah...

2004-11-23T09:10:00.000+08:00

haiz... guess the word is out.. i'm a retainee... haiz... life.. disappointment everywhere... many ppl disappointed with me... nonetheless, they dun think of the trauma i'm going thru, the state of my mine, the guilt, the shame.... NO ONE thinks of that, they only think so much about their own face.... haiz, I on the other hand feel that this tough lesson i'm going thru is a rejuvenation for me... TIME TO WAKE UP!!! pls ppl, pls stop putting me down, criticizing my every move, my every word... It certainly DOES HURT... I dun think any of u would wanna be in my position... Alienated by so-called "friends" and being constantly put down...

2004-11-11T18:16:00.000+08:00

B O R I N G!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really could die of boredom! Honest!!! Sick sey!! Although Hari Raya coming in a couple of days, I juz dun feel like celebrating! Nothing to be happy about or celebrate!! Sianz.... Been on the net since midday, on the msn wif some frens talking cock... Constantly worrying bout my results... Gonna get them on Tuesday... It's really killing me! The thought of getting retained haunts me every now and then... Still, I am optimistic bout it. I see it as a chance of getting a second chance to better myself and my understanding of wateva is being taught... To even better prepare me for the A's... Still, I dun think my family or relatives would see it in that way... Society won't look at it that way too... Haiz... Sad fact of life...

2004-10-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

"Gravity"

Honey, It's been a long time coming

And I can't stop now

Such a long time running

And I can't stop now

Do you hear my heart beating

Can you hear that sound

Cause I can't stop thinking

And I don't look down

And then I looked up at the sun

And I could see

Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me

And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun

And the way that gravity pulls on everyone, on everyone

Baby, It's been a long time waiting

Such a long, long time

And I can't stop smiling

No I can't stop now

And do you hear my heart beating And can you hear that sound

Cause I can't help crying

And I won't look down

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see

Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me

And then I looked up at the sun and saw the sky

And the way that gravity pulls on you and I, on you and I

Can you hear my heart beating

Can you hear that sound

Cause I can't help crying

And I wont look down

2004-10-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

Me dun undastand when u say me too passionate... I know that "US" shudn't be my or shud I say our priority at this point of time but, wat's the point of being together then? Might as well have me like any of your other frens... Me also not that ideal if u have not noticed, never ur dream guy... Me sorry baby, hurting u wif the things that me do but me not conscious wif wateva me doing... Me know that what ever happened wun stop haunting u, it juz wun right? It's here to stay... We do not have control over it but nonetheless, we can repent... So sorry baby... Me too demanding right? Haiz, sad life u have, being stuck on me... Sorry...

2004-10-24T13:17:00.000+08:00

"Over And Over"(feat. Tim McGraw)

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can’t keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause it’s all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can’t take it yeah I can’t shake it

Nooo

I can’t wait to see you

Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes

That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes

And it’s a shame that we got to spend our time

Being mad about the same things

Over and over again

About the same things

Over and over again

Ohh

But I think she’s leaving

Ooh man she’s leaving

I don’t know what else to do(I Can’t go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can’t keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again yeah

And I can’t take it yeah I can’t shake it

NoooI remember the day you left

I remember the last breath you took right in front of me

When you said that u would leave

I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything

But I see clearly now

And this choice I made keep playing in my head

Over and over again

Playing my head

Over and over again

OhhI think she’s leaving

Ooh man she’s leaving

I don’t know what else to do(I Can’t go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can’t keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can’t take it I can’t shake it

Nooo

(Now that I’ve realized that I’m going down

From all this pain you’ve put me through

Every time I close my eyes I like it downI can’t go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can’t keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can’t take it I can’t shake it

Nooo

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can’t keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can’t take it I can’t shake it

Nooo

Over and Over again

Cause it’s all in my head

2004-10-21T13:40:00.000+08:00

lonely... juz lonely....

cinta tak terbalas....

//*pogy emo..again

2004-10-16T11:39:00.000+08:00

"My Boo"(feat. Alicia Keys)

[Usher intro:]

There's always that one person

That will always have your heart

You'll never see it coming

Cause you're blinded from the start

Know that you're that one for me

It's clear for everyone to see

Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

[Alicia intro:]

I don't know bout cha'll

But I know about us and uh

This is the only way

We know how to rock

I don't know bout cha'll

But I know about us and uh

This is the only way

We know how to rock

[Usher Verse:]

Do you remember girl

I was the one who gave you your first kiss

Cause I remember girl

I was the one who said put your lips like this

Even before all the fame and

People screaming your name

Girl I was there when you were my baby

[Chorus:][Usher:]

It started when we were younger

You were mine my boo

Now another brother's taking over

But its still in your eyes my boo

Even though we used to argue it's alright

I know we haven't seen each other

In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]

I was in love with you when we were younger

You were mine my boo

And I see it from time to time

I still feel like my boo

And I can see it no matter

How I try to hide my boo

Even though there's another man in my life

You will always be my boo

[Alicia Verse:]

Yes I remember boy

Cause after we kissed

I could only think about your lips

Yes I remember boy

The moment I knew you were the one I could spend my life with

Even before all the fame

And people screaming your name

I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus:][Usher:]

It started when we were younger

You were mine my boo

Now another brother's taking over

But its still in your eyes my boo

Even though we used to argue it's alright

I know we haven't seen each other

In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]

I was in love with you when we were younger

You were mine my boo

And I see it from time to time

I still feel like my boo

And I can see it no matter

How I try to hide my boo

Even though there's another man in my life

You will always be my boo

[Usher:]

My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Alicia:]

My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Chorus:][Usher:]

It started when we were younger

You were mine my boo

Now another brother's taking over

But its still in your eyes my boo

Even though we used to argue it's alright

I know we haven't seen each other

In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia & Usher:]

I don't know bout cha'll

But I know about us and uh

This is the only way

We know how to rock

I don't know bout cha'll

But I know about us and uh

This is the only way

We know how to rock

2004-10-16T11:33:00.000+08:00

Me maybe really2 busy these few days, but never ever think that u r the only one in this relationship.. Me will always be here sayang, for you... Only for you... LuRv you so much baby, so this song is for you..... :)

//*pogy + eka

2004-10-14T17:58:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to meeee, happy birthday to me!!! Haha, all my life, i never had such a chocolatey b'day ever!! K, before i start, i'd like to thank the following people, according to ORDER of wishes by SMS!!! Hee....

Eka, for being the first person to well-wish me...
Khairin, for being the second...
My kuzzin lyn for being the third...
Lan, being the fourth...
Steph, the fifth...
Kak Hannes, another kuzzin, the sixth...
McDonalds crew?? Haha, them too coz i signed up for membership!! The seventh...
Arifah(a.k.a Sandy the squirrel), the eight...
Erna, eka's best fwen, the ninth...
My old fren, Fazli, the tenth...
Dyna, my good fren, the eleventh...

And so many more peeps in skool!!! Thanx a lot ya!!!

K, now me begin... K, me went to school, then bumped into shiqin in the morning and she handed me my first gift of the day!!! Wrapped in old-skool flowery wrapping paper(hehe, inside got black shirt!! Thanx ya!!).... Then me went to class and got the biggest wrapped present frm Noorma & Pejal!!! Nice wrapping paper!!!(Inside was a bag full of chocolates!!! Which most of them i ate during lecture today!!! Hee...) Lastly, the best gift of all... From eka of course!!! Hee... She made me a mould of brownies!!! WOOOOOOOWWWW!!!!!! Never had anyone making me anything my entire life!!! I feel soooooo SPECIAL!!! Thanx so much shayang!! Ya, we spent time together near my house at FCC, eating strawberries and cream and the brownies!!! Not forgetting my favourite drink!!! Green tea peppermint!!! You didn't forget!!! Thanx so much again sha!!! Basically, i enjoyed every minute of today to the max!!! (although the promos are coming nxt wk!!)

Lastly, a big thank you to every single one of you out there for shaping me to who I am today, in one way or another... :) To sha, you are the present of my life....*wink

K, gotta stop slacking and surfing and gotta start mugging!!! Wish me luck ppl!!! Thanx once again!!!

2004-10-09T18:04:00.000+08:00

Emo... Me so emo.. Emo emo emo.... Emo!!!! I miss sha so much... LuRv her so much.... Emo.... Emo...

//*pogy EMO

2004-10-09T17:47:00.000+08:00

i'm not a perfect person.

there are many things i wish i didnt dobut i continue learning.

i never meant to do those things to you.

and so i have to say before i go, that i just want you to know i've found a reason for me,

to change who i used to be

a reason to start over new, and the reason is you

i'm sorry that i hurt u, its something i must live with everyday and all the pain i put you through,

i wish that i could take it all away and be the one who catches all your tears,

thats why i need you to hear

i'm not a perfect person, i never meant to do those things to you

and so i have to say before i go that i just want you to know

i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be

a reason to start over new, and the reason is you

i've found a reason to show a side of me you didnt knowa reason for all that i do,

and the reason is you

2004-10-01T09:16:00.000+08:00

I know I should have controlled my anger and jealousy.. Haiz, how i juz wish i could turn back time.. Sayang i'm so sorry, i noe its not worth the hurt that has been done.. I wanna change, i wanna be a better person, help me sayang... Help me thru this... I wanna be wif you, only you...

2004-09-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

Mengapa sayang, kerana seorang kawan, kau sanggup menyingkir diriku ke tepi? Kau campak diriku seolah tidak mempunyai erti bagimu. U call me immature, being over-jealous, and u see this as a control over u.... Y? It's bcoz i'm head over heels for u that's why i'm jealous, i'm scared u wud leave me... Dun u see the link? U keep on being cold towards me and it feels like being stabbed inside out... U said u love me, but y do u hurt me? U know i'm particular about stuff like that but u still do it... I know u r socialable from the start, i can accept that and that u know ur limits wen u befriend guys but it really seems that u r enjoying HIS company more instead of mine... It really hurts but i have to bear it coz u won't stop putting me down and giving me the cold shoulder

2004-09-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

There's a deep cut inside

I'm bleeding inside

Haemophillia

I'm draining

I'm drifting away

So hurt

Juz can't bear this torture

2004-09-30T14:19:00.000+08:00

haiz, why muz shit happen when we are having fun and enjoying each other's company? Y do u allow things to get between us? Y?

2004-09-23T08:38:00.000+08:00

Yay!! Yesterday me met Shayang!!! Hee... Yup! So darn glad!! At last can't meet her! Erm after much persuasion to ask her to SKIP her classes!!! Arrgh!!! *GUILTY* So sorry sayang... Haiz... So bad right?? Anyways, we went to CCK!! Hehe, g makan... Skali see, noormz also wanna meet Pejal there!! Hehe, wat a coincidence!! Met Sha at Yishun MRT stn... So darn happy to see her!!! *melts* So pretty!!! Then we headed to CCK, Lot 1.... Waited for Pejal there then Sha hungry so we go makan!! At "Let's Eat", hehe sounds like a programme from Kids Central right?? Hee... Anyway, the food there was like a cheaper and better alternative as compared to Sakura.... Ya... So we ordered food but noormz and Pejal didnt have anything only dessert... Then talk2 and eat2, then we went our separate ways.... But before that we went to Mini Toons!! Me bought Sha a PINK striped sling bag and pencil case... She was so enthralled!!! So cute!!! Hee... You guys should have seen her face!!! Haha... Erm, oh ok, gotta stop here, gotta rush for Chem lecture!!! C ya later!!!!

2004-09-23T08:31:00.000+08:00

Life's moving too fast,
I can't catch up,
When I try doing so,
It's so overwhelming
It's uncontrollable
People say it's normal
but they don't take the initiative to help

Life's moving too fast
I can't slow it down
No one can help
Soon, I'll be gone

Then Life won't move anymore........

*Fauzy- Suicidal*

2004-09-12T13:17:00.000+08:00

Walaupun kau telah berjanji akan kembali ke dalam hidupku, aku tidak begitu yakin ia akan berlaku, masa akan menentukan semua... Namun, aku berdoa dapat dijodohkan denganmu....

2004-09-11T19:42:00.000+08:00

Tk mungkin aku melafazkan rahsia cintaku padamu sedangkan aku pun tak tahu rahsia di sebalik hatimu dan juga setelah kesetiaan diriku kau curigai, aku terluka dan terus tersiksa, kau yang ku sayang kini menjadi duri yang menyakiti diriku namun aku tetap tabah mengharungi dugaan.....

*Fauzy emo*

2004-09-11T13:47:00.000+08:00

dun care who you are, what u r to me, i'm juz hurt, so hurt, can't think straight, i am not stable now, juz leave me alone, it's over.......

2004-09-10T14:52:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps!!! Got back from 5 complete days of boredom in Changi!!! Feel so sick!!! Bleaaaahhh!!!! Got so much to say but then shit happened.... You wanted two weeks off of us, so i consented... I thought it was a good way for us to find ourselves again.... But then, this happens... I know i was wrong, not replying ur msgs, calling u like i used to... But we were supposed to have some time on our own right??????? Now, after ur phonecall, u ended it all... I know u didn't enjoy the times we had together even a bit coz u were complaining the whole time!! U even compared other couples with us!! What am i?? Ur design of a dream guy which needs constant improvements????? I am definitely sick of this, u call me now and then, asking the definition of LOVE and what u r to me, then u juz fucking shut me off and u get things ur way. What is this???? Hate me all u want, if u believe that's fair... Go ahead, tell everyone how bad of a person I am, just leave me alone, u dun want me back, ur juz the best i ever had

2004-08-30T20:15:00.000+08:00

Today, dunno wat's wrong wif the peeps around me!!! Siao man!!! Can't live in a place where ppl really so uptight and serious about every single thing.... Sick sey!!! The morning was alright, came to school, met Vishnu and the others in the canteen, but then, he looked at me damn one kind... S'ok, maybe Monday blues, so i ignored it... Erm, then, morning break was alright, had Yong Tau Foo... S'ok, but then Vishnu began to talk about forming an opposition political party again... Haiz.... Never ever wanted to be involved in POLITICS!!!!!!!!!! Bleah...... Nonetheless, i found his speech interesting but, down inside i know that he could not be successful of having one... Funds, support, where to get nowadays???? People just can't be bothered!!! The Hitler movie during GP must really have nurtured his spirit to stand up against the government.... Also, Dilip was also not happy with me, it was damn evident!! He sat beside me and clamped up... Y?? Coz i asked for his and steph's help for PW.... Juz add in the damned stuff and its done wat!!! No need to be so hostile bout stuff!!! Ya, then it was GP, thank GOD Mr Heng decided not to show it, if not, things could have been worse!!! Vishnu, then suddenly morphed in to a philosophical being.... Talking about life blah blah blah!!!! I just couldn't be bothered and did my compre..... Guess what the passage was about?? HITLER AND GANDHI!!!!!!!!!!!! Arrgh!!!! Serious ar, buay tahan ar!!! After that quickly ran for Chem lect, thank GOD again he didn't mention bout politics again... But then, got new problem, Noorma was angry with me for not meeting up with the rest for Biology essay discussion... Yes, i know i'm in the wrong, but there's absolutely no need to snap at me and ignore me for the rest of the day!!! Sheesh!!! Haiz, wat to say, i'm a nobody.... Econs was ok.... Blah blah blah..... Malay was cool!! Cikgu Noraidah didn't come but we got work to do... TYS papers... Me went outta class, grabbed a can of Nescafe Latte and Crunch chocolate!! Haha, choc and coffee!!! Who cud resist?? I was HIGH on caffeine!! Heeee!!!!!! Ya, then managed to complete the assigned work unlike the rest!! Hooray!! Maybe the thought of really100 improving my present standard of Malay drove me towards it!!! You go Fauzy!!!! Haha!! PE was aok, but my head was totally filled with chem coz got test!!! Dun wanna disappoint Ms Seah despite all her hard work!!! Ya, hehe played badminton and read my notes at the same time!! Never done anything like it before!! Strange sey!! Ya, kinda dats all bout it.. Gonna celebrate my 1 year anniversary with Fiqah tmrw, not actually tmrw lah, should be on Wednesday, 1st september, but can't go out.. Sorry darling !!! Hooray!! Never made it this far before in a serious relationship!!! We've been through a lot guRl... I really reasure and cherish every single moment of it.... LuRv u lots honey!!! See u tmrw!!!

2004-08-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

Pogy bad.... Made Eka sad, angry and fed up... Pogy juz too stressed but no an excuse for Pogy's actions.... Haiz, tried to say sorry, but HURT is done.... Eka, Pogy sorry.....

Please forgive Pogy....

2004-08-21T20:26:00.000+08:00

Today was GP test... This time, in the auditorium!!!! Arrgh!!! Again, skinny-me was nearly frozen to death!!! Although, this time i brought my sweater, i still nearly froze!!! The paper was alright i guess, but part 2 was kinda tough... Talking about the education system blah blah blah.... Rushed to the application question but managed to finish it nonetheless.... After it was over at ard 11am, i waited for my mum till ard 2.50pm!!! Parent-meeting session!!!! I juz couldnt concentrate on my lunch thinking of it!!!! Haiz, got bord of sitting at the canteen, i went to my friend's shop, "GoNature aquarium".... Sat ard, chatted with them, did some spying for prices in another shop to compete for customers!! Hehe, damn farnie... Ya, then ard 2.20pm, my mum called and said dat she was on the way to my school, panicked and ran back to school,where on the way, i met marina and her mum... Said hi then continued running back... Reached school, mum not there yet, chatted with Thomas near the koi pond... So relaxing and calming!!! *-_-* Hehe... There, saw fad wif her parents, but i didnt say anything coz "malu".. Ya, then after my mum arrived, we went to the audi.... AGAIN!!!! But thankfully, this time, not as long... After ard 20 mins, it was MY turn...Tried to remain calm... Sat down, then saw my results... NOT BAD!!!!!! Hehe, quite happy, improvement!!!! Yup, then, Ms Koh spoke for ard 20 mins.... She said i was talkative!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arrgh!!!! So not me right????? Ya, then i was dumbfounded and remained silent and only nodded to all the advice and compliments showered upon me..... Hehe, kinda felt great, but definitely, A LOT could be done to improve my grades...... Muz start MUGGING!!! Support me people!!!!

2004-08-19T18:18:00.000+08:00

This may sound abrupt as a start but this is the only way for me to vomit out my feelings..... Why no reply? That's wat i have been asking myself... If u really, truly need me, why no reply?? Ok, even if u dun, but u knowthat i do, yearn for ur attention, care and concern, why dun u even bother to reply? I know u got ur life too, but so do i..... I try to reply all ur msgs as soon as possible and do the things u like.... It's my pleasure to be with u n keep u happy, but why this resistance for a small favour? I'm so sorry, maybe my expectations are high like urs too.... We are drifting away, and that's a fact i can't deny, i noe u agree.... It really seems that u r really busy with God knows wat and i'm invsible to ur eyes and of non-existence... Thinking that i'm putting u down? Think again, it's juz wat i feel and i'm not exaggerating any part of it... Sum1 might have entered your life, given u a better drive and u cudn't ask for more... Juz leave me alone....... Sorry, it's not that i dun trust u but its juz a natural feeling inside and i can't help keeping it to myself......

2004-08-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

Today me met fiqah!!!! hehe, so fun... i organised a mini "date" for us!!! I enjoyed it at least hehe.... erm, bought her flowers, her favourite drink: Rhumba Frappucino from Starbucks and then, we walke to Yishun Park!!! So fun!!! Hehe, ya, but still, she complained about being in the outdoors and the heat of the 4pm sun... Haiz, nonetheless, i enjoyed myself at least, sitting facing the "pond" beside GV yishun.... Saw an eagle!!! But fiqah keep on insisting that it wasnt one... Haiz... Then,saw it chsing after this smaller bird in flight!!! Wow!!! Like from National Geographic!!! Predator vs prey!!!! Ya, then i walked her home.... Sweet ain't i?? Ya rite!!! But oklah, kinda fun, to take such a break once awhile.... Now, i'm stoning at home, feeling numb... Life doesn't seem to have a meaning anymore, no feelings at all... Dun feel like myself anymore... Tried, but failed... Again.... and again..... Life.... SUCKS!!!!!!!!!

2004-08-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

haiz... today was good, went for my malay Saturday test..... Sat in the LT for 3 straight hours!!!! Imagine how skinny-me, nearly froze to death in there!! The paper's fine but i guess the way i wroe the karangan kinda sucked... I really mean it, sucked.... HAiz, nothing much i can do aight!!!! Juz have to wait and look at the results come next week for the parents meeting session!!! Arrgh!!!! Freaking out oreadi sia!! Nvmind lah, did my best, dats all i can say... After dat, me went to some bird shop nearby.. Hehe, checking out BIRDS.... Heee... Then bumped into my skool mate from FSS, Jonathan!!! Hehe, it has been quite awhile since we chatted... Such a nice surprise!!! We went to CP city after dat, went to a few fish shops, then fiqah called!!!!! Enthralled!!! We then met, went to YJ back, settled some stuff then we walked to NP... Me sent her home... So sweet aint i?!!!! Hehe, oh ya, she gave me a RED t-shirt she bought for me in KL!!! Bum city, hehe, BUM.... Er... Sorry k laling!!! Me cheeky... ha.... K, guess dats all for today, now chilling at home, gonna wash my tanks in awhile.... Byee!!!

2004-08-09T18:40:00.000+08:00

Well well well.... Looks it's worth the wait after so long since i updated aight!!! Hehe, how does it look like ppl?? Have to say that this is somewhat what i wanted after all this while..... Did some modifications.. Hope u all like it....

2004-06-22T16:15:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl!! How y'all like my new blog?? Kinda plain though and i dun really like it as compared to my old one but, i hope things will get better once i learn how to upload stuff here...

2004-06-20T13:00:00.000+08:00

Haiz... So sick of all these dark stuff all this while... Can't take it anymore.. Wanna change the whole concept of my blog!!! Something which describes ME!!! Something vibrant, retro... Stuff like that... Bright colours!!!

2004-06-20T12:22:00.000+08:00

:)

You're the classic smiley

You're well-known and always cheery. You're just an all-around friendly person! You are loyal and can be trusted with a secret. Many people admire you.

What online smiley are YOU?!

@ Radiant

2004-06-14T21:35:00.000+08:00

Halo peepz!!! Haha, kinda ecstatic today.. Got to meet my laling!!!!! And... Buy new Bettas!!!! So darn happy!! Ya, have to buy new fish coz Pinky and Steely died... Haiz.. So sad, now got no fish to enter the upcoming competition at AMK... Nvmind... Met sha!! Woohoo!! Though our conversation today was not what i expected coz long time nv meet, but, ya, i undastand the state she is in rite now... LuRv u laling!!!!

2004-06-11T09:33:00.000+08:00

Harlo ppl!!!! Wazzup!!!! Hehe.. Yesterday i had a great time.. Played for my house in the interhouse tournament badminton doubles, but pitifully lost by a small margin.. Haiz... Wat luck!!! Nonetheless, i did my best... Sorry guys(Rodney members) for not winning it... But when i was about to leave the hall, this guy from the badminton skool team, invited ME to join them!!!! I was estatic!!!! Definitely a surprise man!!!! Rang up sha and told her bout the good news.. Really missed her, i really100 do!!! Arrgh but now, i'm suffering all these aches all over my body....Haiz....

2004-05-29T23:21:00.000+08:00

so suddenly, i'm feelin numb.. fingers and toes all cold.. can't think straight.. muddled, juz wanna get away and juz 4get bout it.. it always happen when everyting seems fine.. but guess i'm wrong... "dun sangka clear water no buaya"....

2004-05-28T17:53:00.000+08:00

Ey there ppl!!! Wazzup!!!! Hehe, gone crazee... Life truly sux in YJ but nonetheless, gotta hold on... There aint gonna be no HOLIDAY for me!! Arrgh!!! Got a week's worth of lessons, then gotta meet wif my grp mates for project work... So many things to do, so little time... Got into some stupid shit wif Eka, but sort it out.. Juz can' leave without her...

2004-05-23T10:43:00.000+08:00

After wat u have told me last nyte, i can't sleep, fighting the effects of my medication... Thinking that i have totally wrecked your future.. Y muz u do that bcoz of me?? Y do u sacifice ur life for me? Who am i to deserve these priveleges?? I dun want u to sumday reflect and regret ur decision... I am really now full of guilt and i can't do anything to turn back time and undo wateva that has been done... you hv done so much to make others happy, so in return, i am willing to sacrifice anythig to make u happy, juz tell me, and i'll do it for ur sake....

2004-05-22T19:38:00.001+08:00

LOVING ONE. You need safety in your relationship.
You want to be sure in his/her arms, knowing
that he will protect you and you can be totally
devoted to your other. At this point you are
very vulnerable. You open yourself and dont
even think that he/she could cheat you. You
totally trust your partner in every single way.
SO if you find out that she/he lied to you or
played a game this trust is broken. You may try
to forgive your other but this will be very
difficult.He/She has to be friendly and
trustworthy.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.
You can always message me or tell me how I can
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2004-05-16T13:01:00.000+08:00

Hey guys... Lot of things happend tis few weeks... Extremely exhausting...Tests here n there.. Got problems wif eka, but me still standing strong... Juz so sad sumtimes when i recall it but wth... Still got back wat i wantd n working to sustaining n improving it... Hope you all undastand guys.. Sowie 4 not updating bout the OBS thingy... No time lah.. See, now gtg awreadi... Haiz,hope too blog again later....

2004-05-03T13:37:00.000+08:00

Elo ppl!!! Hehe, great to be back but definitely luRved ubin... Here's wat happened...

Day 1
Everything was great, looking forward to it so much, juz could'nt contain da xcitement.. Hehe, Eka brought her trolley bag as if going for a flight..:P No assembly, we got off by skool bus to Punggol jetty.. Gathered there, my class got there first.. The ferry was alright but kinda retro in the interior.. Everyone got xcited and put on sun block.. Wth??? There, we got into a 'watch', our's was "Nila Utama"...Cool group, our instructor, Steven, was great too... Got down to some admin matters..Blah,blah,blah... I volunteered for store i/c along wif Sufiyan... After that,came the great part, KAYAKKING!!! Everyone was definitely hysterical!! First came the safety procedures...blah blah blah, we went to the beachfront, carrying our kayaks, did some rescue xercises and off we went!! Went out towards the middle of the sea at ard 4.. Then paddled slowly (so rpmantic but damn! wif the wrong partner!!) into a quiet, tranquil mangrove swamp... Kingfishers chirping... Haha then nesh and see lin went into a tree!! There was a monitor lizard on it but everything went fine.... We then rested for a while then our way back... Showered while it was raining heavily outside... Eka and some other gurls prepared dinner while we pitched the tents... That was the start of the conflict in the watch... Ppl got easily irritable and vulgarities was the common form of communication... Wateva ppl!!! I pitched my tent and partially others too and then dozed off....

K2 guys, me got to go now, gotta rush for econs.. Promise would continue the other parts of my adventure.... :) LuRv u Eka!!!

2004-04-24T10:38:00.000+08:00

Wondaful day today, got outta bed, so damn cold, curse the aircon ..... But wat the heck, still enjoyd it... Blah blah blah, left home for skool...Walked in the exceptionally cool morning breeze, simply enlightening.. :) Waited for eka at Yishun Mrt station.. Thank god i called her, she juz woke up!!! Arrgh!!! Can't believe it.. Then i decided to fetch her... Again, i walked across a few open fields and the breeze was again mystical... Whoa..... Waited for her at a block nearby at least for 30 minutes!! Arrgh!! Very hysterical awreadi but wth, have to be patient if not cannot be HER fantasy husband... Waited summore then at last she came!! So damned relieved... Haiz women.. Mesmerised by her beauty then walked to skool together, again, crossing those fields... By then, we were at least 10 mins late.. Called up vignesh, thank god lecture haven't started yet... When we arrived, the whole theatre was staring at us!! So embarrassing!!!!!! Arrgh!! Nvrmind bout that then the lecture called us to sit in the front row!!! What was that for!!!! Boleh giler man... Now me waitng for next lecture, econs.... Later mw goin Beach rd wif my dad, gonna get stuff for OBS... Dats all..

2004-04-20T12:52:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl!! Me now rushing but making a point to blog... Pity eka, got cramp!! I dunno how to handle this kinda stuff.. Haiz.. K2 me now rushing for econs lecture, bye!!1 By the way, me leaving for OBS at Ubin next monday!! Hooray!!! Hehe, so damn xcited!! Wish me luck and pray for my "survival" guys!!!

2004-04-18T17:10:00.000+08:00

At last, a time of peace and quietness, very unlikely of my house, the whole family's out... Hooray!!! Nothing much to say actually, juz that i am now in control of things and juz have to stay focus and revise daily... Trying to recover my everpresent battle against my laziness of not praying... God help me thru this..... Haiz that's bout it i guess...

2004-04-14T11:55:00.000+08:00

Haizz... Amoment of peace at last to tag my blog.. Hehe, hey ppl! Wazzup!! Sounds lame..:P Life has been a total rush, trying my best to catchup wif wat i missed during the 1st 3 months here at Yjc... I'm taking 3 'A's and 2 'O's.. Bio, chem and econs... At this point in time, i'd say dat econs is my favourite... Arrgh!!! Wth... Emotions are running freaking WILD too... Everything's too overwhelming... All you ppl who are going to the poly, i hope you all the best juz be prepared and never ever slack ppl!!!!

2004-03-25T08:20:00.000+08:00

Hey there ppl!! Haha, so long never update rite?? Too buzy lah.. Hehe anyone miss me?? Lotsa things happened.. There's the chalet: fishing, bbq.. Then there's the posting results.. Then the experience here in my posted school... Sit back relax and enjoy MY ride...

CHALET!!!
It was fantastic except the nagging from granny..
Me, hannes, lyn(my kuzzins) n norrisman Waited for my grandaunt n granduncle to fetch us after my family left for the chalet..We waited and waited till it was like about 4++ when it was storming outside... When they got there, the weather was even worse.. Thank god there's shelter, after loading our stuff, we started the 45 minute cramped up drive to Changi.. U could imagine how cramped and numb my butt was when i got out of the car.. Blah blah blah, the first day was juz crappy, slept the whole day and the weather was so cooling... Second day.. Hooray at last there was buzz bout going fishing at night after the bbq.. The bbq was excessively GREAT!! Great food, babes(hehe, juz kidding)... Even the bats ard us joined!! Haha...Then after that, ime went fishing wif my dad, after the ever constant nagging from my granny.. WTF she said she feared i might fall into the water and die drowning.. What crap!!! I am reaching 17 for GOD'S Sake!!! Doesn't she realise that?? Stuff after that went alright.. I guess... Went that on the following Monday(21/3/2004)...

POSTING RESULTS!!!

Put Pjc as my first choice but didn't got it, instead, got my second choice...YJC!!! Haha, get to be wif Eka again.. Hooray!! Going to Yishun again makes me feel like I'm home AGAIN, I used to be from there... A week has almost passed right now.. Chose my subject combinations and i'm aspiring to take up medicine in the local university... But now in a dillema.. Haiz.. In order to get into the limited space, i muz have extremely good 'A' level grades... Besides that, JC life is awfully stressful but WTH, I have to adopt to the environment in order to survive... My subject combi doesn't have any math and that worries me even further... What can I do if i don't make it?? I'll be stuck and have nowhere to go and most likely have to go overseas... Haiz... Comments anyone??

2004-03-18T12:45:00.000+08:00

Elo ppl!! Haha, my turn to enjoy myself today!! Me going chalet!!! At changi!! Hehe, gonna miss u guys and typing the stuff here till Sunday!! 4 cool days at somewhere far from civilisation!! Hehe as if going to some foreign country or island.. Gonna miss u so much darling Eka!!

2004-03-16T10:37:00.000+08:00

Monday
Went to the expo for a fish exhibition!! Thank god i didnt miss it this time, it was the last day!! Haha, made it this time, at least to replace wat i had missed at last year's Aquarama bcoz of the O'levels.. Asked Eka to tag along and she gladly agreed.. I kinda noe that she tagged along juz to be wif me rather than look at those fishes..(I'm so selfish right??) B4 that, we had lunch at BK and we had to use coupons!! So embarrassing!! Wth, budget!! Went inside, walked around for awhile then i was kinda amazed by how they judged the betta competition, definitely not what i expected.. Blah blah blah, we went to the viewing hall at the airport and sat down to discuss bout our future,separated.. So heartbreaking...Fate!! Then we took 858 to yishun where we separated, oblivious of when we would be meeting each other again... Haiz...

Today
Me juz woke up, dunno wat to expect from today... Looking forward to doing good today..

2004-03-14T16:26:00.001+08:00

Saturday
Morning's boring, refused my dad's offer to follow hm to an IT fair at Suntec.. Mum came back and brought us to Sembawang shpg ctr, I gladly acceped the offer as i had my intentions.. Went tto the arcade, enjoyed myself and.. went to my favourite fish shop: "Betta Kingdom"!! I was aesthetic.. Got my grandma to buy me one of the best they have: Orchird black double-ray crowntail (quite a mouthful right??) That was the most shocking event has ever happened to me!! My granny BUYING me that fish?? I MUST be dreaming!! She has always been superstitious bout it all this while, saying that it brings bad luck to the family and all that crap.. Haha, at least now there's another person in my life besides Eka who truly understands me.. Tradition is truly taking a huge morph.. :)

Today
Another boring morning, woke up at around 11, refused my parents' offer to tag them to a wedding(what do THEY expect US, kids to do there??) Brunch was boring and absolutely plain... I juz got back from sending my bro to his religious class, went to the LFS and yeah, that's bout it, looking forward to something xciting afterwards.. Eka kinda down wen was chatting wif her on msn.. Haiz, must be the darn weather... C YA!!!

2004-03-14T16:26:00.000+08:00

2004-03-12T17:30:00.000+08:00

Harlo ppl!! Haha, all miss me rite? Hehe, so sowie 4 not updating my blog ya... Ok, so lets recap...
Wednesday
I was so pissed off that i could not think straight and was in a foul mood.. This @#$%ing pre-u 3 student came to me and pointed at me to his friends and they all laughed.. I was really fed-up being ridiculed like that, thank goodness i contained my anger and not whack him up.. That happened when i was 4 Eka after skool.. Haiz, i even wanted to search that guy but was held back by her.. We then went home with her constantly worrying bout me and my anger.. She adviced me and i saw the"light at the end of the tunnel"..(thanx Eka!!)
Thursday
The @#$^ing guy did the same thing again, this time b4 my GP class.. I was damned fed-up and nearly went into the toilet and bashed him up, then came my teacher, Mrs Rajasegar, I told her everything and confronted that asshole.. He said that it was a joke!! Stupid asshole, i don't believe that such FREAKS exist.. He thinks i can be bullied.. Honestly, if not for Eka's advice, i would have called down my frens and i don't think that asshole would live another day.. Hah, so much for being a good guy....
Friday
Today was the last day, so sad but we swore to still meet up and keep in touch.. Eka gave me FERRERO ROCHER chocolates!!! So happy man!! Haha, i can't afford to forget wateva happened in M.I toh tuck campus, all those wonderful and ugly things that happened to my fwens: Azlan, Redzwan, Maziah and all the other ppl.... Last day that i could see Eka, I guess this was what fate had planned for us.. I really luRv her so much and i'll definitely miss the good and happy, bad and ugly times we had together..I'll cherish every moment of it...

2004-03-09T16:42:00.000+08:00

Today's cccooollll!! Literary too! Went to places we didnt meant to go.. Esplanade is so beautiful!! Enjoyed it wif Eka.. Hehe, Did lotsa stuff together early in the morning, it was wet and cold, but everything was terrific, but what swell luck, got no bucks!! So didn't enjoy it that much but still it was great.. You guys should really go there to hangout! Doesn't matter on what time of the day, its simply magnificent.... Tanx Eka for the wonderful day...

2004-03-08T18:12:00.000+08:00

What a WET day!! Got caught on the way home... Today skool not so bad, though quite boring, i kinda enjoyed it quite a bit.. Lan didn't come today so most of the time me wif Wan, helped him carry the gong around, pity him, y all the seniors bully him? Icant imagine him all those things around im the rain after i left him!! How unthoughtful of me!! Haiz... Hehe, gotta go, juz finished bathing, havent put my shirt on yet....:P

2004-03-07T14:29:00.000+08:00

Today's kinda ok, quite interesting... Eka called n i was so glad to hear her voice!! Hehe luRv u laling.. Enjoyed granny's cooking like never before: asam pedas!! Again my mum offered me to follow her to Tekka, but i refused.. its not as if i'm gonna meet ashwariya rai rite?? (sowie eka!! :P) yalah, life's kinda good today.. Juz disappointed that there's not gonna be anymore Simpsons on channel 5, Haiz... K2, gotta go, muz send bro to religious class, can also hang out at the fish shop!! Hooray!!!

2004-03-06T15:17:00.000+08:00

Arrgh!! Very annoyed, can't sign in my msn!!! Sickening man.. Boring day, Eka juz msged me, i refused my mum's offer to go out wif her.. Fwens all very quiet and i juz made my day annoying "sandy".. Keep on asking her about stuff regarding the stuff about this blog.. Miz eka so much, hopefully she calls me up later... Haiz, BORING!!!! I hope something xciting happens today.. Oh ya, later got " The Simpsons"!!! Something to look forward to today at least.. EKA!!!! CALL ME!!!!

2004-03-06T00:58:00.000+08:00

Today, lotsa things happened but still........ BORING!!! Hehe, in the mornng, i was a total nerve wreck, 'forced' 2 go up the stage to collect "prrize" 4 having he most creative invention.. Wth, haha, created a bad 1st impression of me i guess, the seniors thought i was chinese!! Arrgh!! I've lost my identity!! Nvmind, hopefully got better chance in the future in pjc....